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2 Months in Seclusion

For those of you who follow me on Instagram knows that I just got back from months of seclusion with no general explanation as to what I’ve been doing or why I can’t be contacted, so let me tell you all about it in this blog post about where I’ve been.



For two months, I’ve been staying in Lembang, Bandung, for a religious program held by Kampung Quran Learning Center, which is memorizing the Quran. For Muslim, memorizing the whole 30 chapter of Quran is essentially an honorable thing to do, with promise of huge reward from God. Because of its difficulty, this needs to be done in seclusion far away from social media because it takes a lot of focus and concentration without any distraction. Every participant of this program is required to collect their phone and we only get them back every two weeks for 4 hours.


The best among you is a person who learns the Holy Quran and teaches it.

-Prophet Muhammad (PBUH)

In this super controversial era, people always have questions regarding to Islam and our way of life, and a lot of people who don’t know the truth in the book have tried many times to judge us based on what they hear. As a Muslim, it’s our duty to correct these perspective and start conversation with an actual base of knowledge. Which is why in this seclusion, we were all encouraged to not only memorize the Arabic, but also understand the meaning of each verse.

In a way, it’s also a spiritual moment where we truly take time for ourselves as we try to get closer to God and understand His rules, His rewards, His punishments, and His blessings.

The Program. 

Quran is consisted of 30 chapters (we call it Juz).
1 Juz is consisted of 20 pages.
1 page is consisted of 15 lines.
The verse and letters in every chapter varies.

One of the things that was hard getting used to was definitely the intensive hours of nothing but sitting and memorizing Quran. 5 times a day, for every 2-3 hours, we will sit, find our own comfortable space, and memorize. Everyone has different target, and some will memorize one chapter a day, or half chapter a day, or quarter chapter in a day. Understanding Arabic plays a great role of memorizing the Quran, and everyone has different levels of comprehension on Arabic grammars, so it took different pace and speed for each student.

Those who wish to memorize all 30 Juz have joined the program since March to complete the 4 months program (since we finish on June), and those who are in this program are required to first memorize the first 5 chapter extensively. They will be tested on this 5 chapters in one seating before they are allowed to continue memorize the rest of the 25 chapters.

There are two terms that you need to know,

1. Mutqin. This is when you have extensively memorized the Quran and can be tested for what you have memorized (be it one, five, ten, or thirty chapters) in one seating. This means you are fluent in what you have memorized and can easily use it in prayers like many children (and I) use chapter 30 of the Quran for prayers.

2. Ziyadah. This is when you memorize a whole page, recite the page to the teacher, and then goes on to the next page. Chances are, you’ll forget the page you’ve recited as you go on to the next page, which is why it’s a great responsibility for the student to memorize again once we’re gone back home.

So for those who take the 4 months or 3 months program, they are required to be Mutqin for the first 5 Juz before they can continue with their Ziyadah for the rest of the 25 pages.

Out of 20 girls, only 2 finished the whole 30 Juz, some finished 20, some finished 15, 10, 5, 4, or 3,5 (me).

Other than that, there are also weekly class.


The People.

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There are around 20 girls in this program and each has different start. Some are in the 4 months program, some for 3, and some for 2 (Or six weeks, in my case, because I couldn’t leave Prom and Graduation).

It’s astonishing how a lot of these girls came from different places. There are girls from Sumatra, Kalimantan, Sulawesi (these are the islands in Indonesia). There are girls who just graduated college, girls who are taking time off from their career, girls who decided to resign from their school, it was safe to say that I was one of the youngest girl.


And since Islam is very strict about opposite gender interaction, I have no idea about the gentlemen other than there are around 13 of them, and they too, came from different places with various range of age. I also know that they are very respectful of the girls. I am used to catcalls and compliments, it happens in school, and girls generally like them, so imagine my surprise when every time the girls and boys accidentally had to walk pass one another, they look away without even one urge to glance. Imagine that!

The people here, goodness, I will never find any other group of people who are so dedicated and passionate about their love for God, and it’s so beautiful and refreshing to the soul. Everyone here has different background, mine being the most liberal of them all, and while it’s so damn difficult for me to wear tunic and long headscarf in my environment, the people there were so welcoming that it’s impossible to not still feel beautiful no matter how much you’re covering yourself. It’s impossible to not feel like you belong, like you have the same chance of going to Heaven as they do. It’s so calming to the soul to be in an environment where they are very careful with one another, where they don’t talk about people, where their priorities definitely do not lie here in this world.

It took some time of understanding, and being tolerant is highly important, because not everyone prioritize education the way that I do, but you can never look at them and tell them that they’re wrong with their life choices. It’s amazing how little they care about wealth or power, and even if some of their beliefs contradict with mine, it’s impossible not to respect them.

These girls will always have a special place in my heart.

On Love.

Those of you who follow my blog or social media must have an idea of my views on marriage, and some of you may think it’s the craziest idea ever, but let me tell you something.

The ladies and gents of the house view love and marriage the same way.

Love and crushes, as a 17 year old teenager, I’m absolutely familiar to it all. I understand the texting, the liking on Instagram, the flirting attempt in class, the surprises on birthdays and anniversary, I’m no stranger to any of it, and I have been the giving end and the receiving end to this ridiculousness in my three years of high school career.

Except that was never what I wanted.

I was very open to the girls about my views, and two out of twenty girls over there were ready to marry once the program was finished, so they understood. So imagine my delight when it’s not about physical beauty and wealth anymore.


You see, prayers in Islam (or Salat) are led by men when men are present, and to avoid contact, a huge cloth (or hijab) will be drawn between us. This is so we can all protect ourselves from unnecessary attraction that might lead to heartbreak if things don’t work out.

Because of this, our contact to the gents are limited to only listening to their voice as they perform Adzan (Islamic call to worship) and lead the prayer, and us girls will try to guess;

“Is this him?”

“No, his is voice is different, this is Mr. X.”

“I’d like to listen to his voice again,”


“Would you marry him?”

“Who wouldn’t, with good sense of moral like that.”

How I wish the rest of the world is just like that. It’s never about the face or style with these girls as it has always been with my friends back home, and their big heart is a force to be reckoned with. It’s nice to know that we all share the same top priority when it come to men, and that is, ‘as long as he is religious,’.

If you meet those girls and ask how many people they’ve dated in the past, I guarantee you that most will answer 0. I can count with one hand of people who’ve dated in the past, and those are the millennials who are around my age.

You see, we view marriage as a way of protecting ourselves. Lust can be a great enemy, and respected men and women won’t have it in themselves to try around from people to people. These people here are very true to their religion, and they will never try to mess around with people’s heart if there is no certainty as the end game. Once the program is finished, I know a few gentlemen who have reached out to the girls with sole purpose of asking their hand in marriage, and it might be old-fashioned, you may not agree to this, but let’s just respect our way of life the way that it is.

If nothing else, you gotta admire their faith in God.

These people, between us and the boys, we know very little about each other and have only seen one another a handful of times. I don’t know who’s talking to who right now, but I know that if anyone is talking, it’s not about favorite food or favorite color. It’s about are you ready for marriage, or would you want to work, or are you willing to leave your island to live with your prospective husband, or the bunch.

Technicality, because that’s what matters. If the mechanics work, then they’ll discuss it with their respective families, ask for guidance to God, and then the male will propose to the female. All these process are done very carefully, sometimes with a mediator to avoid heartache if at the end of the day the mechanics don’t work out.

The world was so ideal and true to Islam that it stung when our time was over, but I suppose all good things, do, must come to an end. I only hope that I will always remember the friendship I formed, and I’ll always wish for the highest level of Jannah for all of them as they deserve.

If any of you are reading right now, thank you for your time and patience with me, and thank you for the life lesson that you taught me well. I’ll remember each and every smile on your faces, just like how I sang it that night.

Here’s to Ahlul Quran,
Here’s to you

Graduation Speech SMA Labschool Cibubur 2017

Hello my loves!

This is where I bow down and deeply apologize for my long absence from this blog. What do you know, first I’m gone, the next I graduated high school! Here’s a cookie for you all, I was given the honor by my school to deliver a speech on our graduation day, enjoy!

7 Notes: In Case You Forget

Dear Me,

You’ll come of age tomorrow at 5:17 in the morning (the day is exactly on Wednesday, too, what a coincidence), and since 17 is predicted to be a life-changing age for you, I’d like to tell you who you are and who you’ve always striven to become in case cosmos decides to turn your life upside-down this year.

1. You’re proud of who you are. You’re a Muslim lady, you’re tiny, you’re unapologetic, you’re driven, you wear heels, you’re in hijab, you’re in skirt, you’re passionate, you’re interested, you love the spotlight, you’re confident, it’s okay. Japan will be scary, university might be a cruel beauty, you might want to take off your hijab and blend with everyone else every once in a while, that’s okay. You’ve been through this and you came out stronger. Laugh it off, they don’t understand. Make them, that’s your job.

2. You want to get married at this age. This is 16 year old you speaking, and I’ve spent my whole year hoping to turn 17 soon so I can turn into a legal adult and get hitched to a wonderful man who He has chosen for me. Please don’t forget why you want this. Please don’t give in to worldly pleasure and abandon your faith. You’ll find love, so please do it the right way. He is worth it, and the man will be worth the wait. Keep praying, keep asking, keep introspecting yourself. Pick up the pieces of the heart that you’ve let people break and keep it intact. Your chosen one deserves to have it whole.

3. Have fun. Education is important, you know that, I know that. But deary, please remember that you will be far away from your home, you’ll need people to support you and keep you sane. Go out, have fun, gain new experience, join clubs, and mingle all you can. Don’t do the same mistake I did by focusing on friendship far too late. Create memories and gain special people.

4. Remember your loved ones. Remember, tomorrow’s not promised. You left high school leaving tons of memories with your loved ones. Your uni-life is not worth forgetting the people who made you into who you are today. Reach out to your Mama, teachers, friends, loves, everyone. You owe them.

5. No regrets. Do what you want to do and don’t let people steer you into direction you don’t want to go. Time can’t be traded, it’s gone once  its pass. Make decision for yourself and don’t regret your life. Don’t entertain yourself with thoughts of what ifs. Just do it.

6. Run. In literal sense. You value health, you know it’s important to stay in shape. Fast twice a week, run every weekend, kiss the breeze. You’ve built this system in your body and you’ve endured 17 kilos three times in your life. Take an hour every week to just run, sweat, do some push-ups, sit-ups, plank, and keep that tummy flat.

7. Start writing again. I stopped this year. My excuse is senior year, of course, but what guarantees your life is going to be easier in Uni? But hey, give yourself a favor and write again. It’s therapeutic and relaxing, we loved it. Write again, write more.

An Open Mind in Japan

Japan that I know today is different with Japan that I grew up in 12 years ago. The reason why I’m saying this is because Japan, along with the rest of the world, has come to learn that the world is bigger than it looks and is starting to become more open to all cultures, religion, and race.

Japanese has always been generally respectful, but something that happened recently was my first encounter with a Japanese that was right down excited to wear a hijab.

You see, we were in the farewell party of Hosei University’s short scholarship program. We were all chatting and mingling until the end of the event came, where we were all trading gifts and souvenirs to our Japanese friends, professors, and staff. There were three Cambodians who participated in the program who gave the Japanese a traditional scarf called Krama. 

And then this one lovely girl called Yuuko-san came up to me.

She was really enthusiastic as she spread the cloth wide and asked if I could teach her to wear the hijab. I remember feeling warm all over as I said yes just as excitedly. I asked if she could get on her knees as I wrap the Krama around her head, and I remember having a moment to myself where I was really awestruck with her genuine curiosity and excitement once I was done.

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It was a lovely experience, one I won’t ever let myself forget. Yuuko-san did expressed her concern of offending Muslim by wearing hijab despite being a non-Muslim, and I think, in my limited knowledge, I’d like to assure all non-Muslim girls that it is completely fine, appreciated, even, if you want to wear hijab in the name of solidarity for all girls who do wear them,

Thank you for these lovely Japanese girls, Yuuko-san and Hitomi-san.

Here’s to them

World Hijab Day 2017

In the spirit of my second year celebrating World Hijab Day, I asked a bunch of my Hijabi friends in school to share the love by snapping photos left and right. Here’s to us as we embrace the crown!

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Shampoo and Hair Mist | Azalea Beauty Hijab

If you’re the kind of hijabi who forgets when the last time you washed your hair because you don’t have anyone to show them off to and realize only at the last minute at how greasy your scalp and hair has become (like me), I might have the solution to that little problem.

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Azalea Inspired by Natur hair product comes in two types, a Hair Hijab Mist and Hijab Shampoo with zaitun oil and aloe vera extract.

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In the first day, I washed my hair with Hijab Shampoo and it does wonders! I have never felt my hair so clean before in my entire life. It’s like when you spray a greasy glass and wipes it off and it leaves a squeaky clean sound, that is what your hair will feel like, with all the cooling sensation that comes from the menthol. After drying, the shampoo leaves a subtle hint of smell, which might be your thing if you prefer to not be overwhelmed with a strong flowery smell.

FullSizeRender (7)For the next three days, I laid off washing my hair and instead tried to spray it with Hair Hijab Mist before and after school. While it does leaves an amazing smell, the mist will eventually oil up and shine your hair with grease, so I recommend against either wearing it too much or not washing your hair too long. You can also spray the mist to your hijab after Physical Education class or just to get through a sweaty day.

Over all, I’m happy with the products, especially the shampoo. Even though it leaves my hair dry, the squeaky clean result is something that I encourage all of you to try out!

Unfortunately, this product only sells in Indonesia, but I will leave a link to all of you who wish to check them out.

Facebook: Azalea Beauty Hijab | Instagram: @azaleabeautyhijab

Madura, Indonesia


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I can’t give a specific location on this one, I simply found a herd of sheep on the side of the road and decided snap some shot. Go cross Suramadu bridge from Surabaya to Madura, head straight, take a careful look, and you’ll find the field on your right. Happy searching!

Jakarta-Surabaya Train Ride

Everyone in Indonesia spends Eid holiday in their hometown with their families. Some take planes, some use trains, and some brave souls have to ride their cars.

This year, my family took the train for the very first time. To new experience, my mother cheerfully said. When I first heard about it, I hated the whole idea. Train ride from Jakarta to Surabaya takes 7 to 8 hours. Plane only takes 2.  I remember dreading the idea of sitting in a suffocating space with a bunch of strangers for seven hours.

When I got into the train and sat down, the seven hours I spent felt very much like a needed therapy.

The train that I rode which called Argo Anggrek was very different with the typical airplane. The large windows, the endless space, the table, the electric socket, it was enjoyable, and to me, the best part of the trip is definitely the ever-changing scenery out of the window.

Let me show you.

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One of the places we visited on the way was Cirebon.DSCN2498 DSCN2501 DSCN2505

Here is Semarang.DSCN2506 DSCN2524 DSCN2528 DSCN2532 DSCN2534

And this is the cotton candy in the sky.DSCN2536And as the sun sets, the rest to enjoy belongs only to the dark.

Here’s to nature, here’s to His creation

Here’s to an event!

Hari Hijaber Nasional, dengan detail:
Nama Acara : Hari Hijaber Nasional
Waktu : 07 Agustus 2016 – 08 Agustus 2016
Tempat : Masjid Agung Sunda Kelapa, Menteng, Jakarta Pusat

The Hamilton Tag!

I have been quite obsessed with Hamilton for the past few weeks, and while I was lying in bed with my phone, I found a video on YouTube by JonasAlmostFamous entitled ‘The Hamilton Tag’. She is a huge Hamilton fan and created this tag!

She gave permission for all of us to use her questions, and I decided to do it, so here you go!

1) How did you find out about Hamilton?

I first heard about it from TheFineBros video about Elders reacting to the musical, but I definitely didn’t give too much thought about it because of how different it was from musicals I’ve seen. Then I saw the opening number of Tony, and the rest is history.

2) Favorite Character?

My favorite character will definitely has to be everyone’s favorite fighting Frenchman, Lafayette.

3) Character you would want to play?

Angelica Schuyler, hands down! She has such a great story line in the musical, although I won’t be opposed to playing Eliza as well.

4) Favorite song to listen to?

I got to list five, you all.

  1. Wait for It
  2. Satisfied
  3. It’s Quiet Uptown
  4. That Would Be Enough
  5. Aaron Burr, Sir

5) Favorite song to sing along with?

Wait for It, no competition.

6) Part you always mess up when you’re singing along?

Every rap part, I think, I mess up a lot. I can sing That Would be Enough just fine, but when it comes to the rap part, I just haven’t gotten the time to learn all of it.

7) Can you rap Guns and Ships?

I can sing along to the part where the Company sings ‘Lafayette!’

8) Which cast member would you most want to meet?

Daveed Diggs! He is such a lay back, charismatic person, and his little laughs are contagious, I’m telling you.

9) Have you seen the show?

No, and I don’t think I’ll ever get to see it with the original cast, but once I’m older and have enough money for myself, I’ll fly to New York and get a ticket.

10) Have you read the book?

I didn’t even know there was a book about it until I watched Jona’s video, but I will most definitely look for it.

11) Favorite line in the show?

life doesn’t discriminate between the sinners and the saints, and it takes, and it takes, but we keep living anyway, we rise and we fall and we break, and we make our mistakes, and if there’s a reason I’m still alive, when everyone who loves me has died, then I’m willing to wait for it.

12)Five words to describe the show?

Phenomenal, majestic, ethereal, unreal, and cinnamon roll.

Open Translation Service!

In the spirit of looking for my own income, I have decided to freelance myself and offer a translation service with reasonable price for struggling students all around Indonesia. I will translate from English to Bahasa Indonesia (and vice versa) and charge per page with standardized format. Price will vary based on how fast you need your documents translated.




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